​2017 Poems
January - April
Poem List: 2017 January thru April
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Jesus Far Away Print this poem only
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You were someone I’d heard of
there on the crucifix above
but you were carved wood or painted
or smelted bronze on the wall untainted
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I heard the priest sermonize
on your Father so old and wise
and your mom in visions and chant
at Lourdes, and my Louisiana aunt
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you were an infant in the manger
but really you were a stranger
up there, out there, far away
to whom we were told to pray
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your cross - blue neon or on white steeples
your name on billboards with other people
like pols, sexy women and housewives
you were sold like candy, rifles and knives
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you were storied in scripture and song
if I wasn’t good like you I was all wrong
I knew you were too perfect to imitate
your life was too sterling to undertake
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Jesus here Jesus there Jesus everywhere
not a real man with sweat and nails and hair
you couldn’t laugh or belch or touch
we couldn’t chat or play or buddy too much
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you were a king and even a superstar
in carols and ballads played with guitars
they said and sang you were a friend to me
that seemed to me an impossibility
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but now I’m glad you’re not far away
or someone I knew about back in the day
I’ve found you my brother and you are free
and loose in my soul, I’ve got you in me.
Written 1-9-17
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Crystal Print this poem only
Her jewels are designed to impress
the bourbon in the crystal she holds
swirls as elegantly as her dress
its willowy hem laced with gold.
I see the way the light is bent
through that crystal clear and bright
and the rainbows in the glint
intoxicate my sight.
But I’m afraid I don’t have the class
to prize crystal and its heavy feel
I’ve got shelves of ordinary glass
with no sophisticated appeal.
They say that real crystal rings
and shines with a silvery sheen
but you can’t hear the angels sing
or see them in my goblet unclean.
My simple vessel is made of clay
its rugged story might give you pause
or its contents scare you away
with its tale of error and flaws.
But… I’ve heard a higher voice speak
and explain I am crystal of precious worth
with a blameless soul and wondrous mystique
He says: “You are a drop of heaven fallen to earth.”
Written 1-9-17
Upon the Waters Print this poem only
Oh you brash God.
You call me out upon the waters,
me in my fears and inadequacies.
But beyond human understanding
you have faith in me.
I am Peter. I step out of that boat
then when things get rough
I panic.
Like Peter, I call upon you:
Save me from sinking,
rescue me from my dimming faith
and vanishing courage!
I see you vaguely
hear you faintly
I am not saintly,
just an ordinary man.
But they were 12 ordinary men
you called them
they followed.
So here I go
because I know you are there
to calm the waters - if I but reach out to you.
You are here - to help me into the boat
for this journey
across the waters…
I leap
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You call me out upon the waters
The great unknown where feet may fail
And there I find You in the mystery
In oceans deep
My faith will stand
And I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine
Your grace abounds in deepest waters
Your sovereign hand
Will be my guide
Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me
You've never failed and You won't start now
So I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine
Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my…
“Oceans” by Hillsong United
Written 1-18-17
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Beyond the Crooked Trees Print this poem only
I walk among crooked trees
its leaves wind-thrown
and gone to ground.
I feel the cooling breeze
stop and lean close
run my hand across the ragged trunk
its pulse now loving deeply.
On the baseball field dad hits
to his boy who leaps
tips the ball
retrieves it
and ably slings it
to an imagined catcher
at the backstop.
And dad shows him a better arch
for his arm.
Ah! what a sweet scene
this simple love of father and son.
I smile sadly
no such memory inside
to warm this wintry day
but somehow healed
by the peal of that bat on ball
a splendid father’s swing
the smooth lope of his child
across that field
just beyond the crooked trees.
Written 1-30-17
New Package Print this poem only
I know I'm aging.
But I am new too
a freshly-arrived-today
unopened package
with a mystery inside.
Each morning you unwrap the day
with your light
and here I am with this present
this mystery before me.
What poem will I find hidden here?
What new creation?
Because it is all new.
I am not my past
but a package full of you
and here I am
ready to unwrap it.
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Written 2-11-17
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Yeast Print this poem only
I feel you rising you yeast
you’ve brought your land inside
and increased - wonder if my death’s at hand.
Or is this just a taste of heaven
calling like groom to bride
kneading in me your leaven
is it you exploding inside?
It seems this you I recognize as if you
and I've been here before yet this
you in me’s a surprise this rising
I can't ignore.
I've asked for you in prayer and song
and here you are in me expanding
my soul - this can't be wrong its all beyond
understanding.
I'd rather not leave this earth
just yet if its ok with you but
keep on with this rebirth
keep on coming – it feels true.
Wherever you want me I'll go
deeper, farther, west or east
if you say come I’ll follow for
I know it’s you my Yeast.
Written 2-7-17
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The Pursuit Print this poem only
Nothing can separate me from you
not when I’m a darker shade of blue
not when darkness comes calling
nor when my spark is falling.
When I open the door to temptation
give myself up to frustration
you are whispering in my ear
that voice I don’t want to hear.
Like a puppy tied to my leash
or a burr that will not release
its grip on my running feet
you will not, you cannot retreat.
Like a poet blocked in deadly boredom
you are the muse running toward him.
You are a father with a telescope
looking for me with eyes of hope.
When I completely gave up on you
left home for reckless rendezvous
gave in to desire and pleasures
your zeal was without measure.
In my deep and wallowing guilt
you don’t give up on what you’ve built
what you’ve known from the start
that you’re right here deep in my heart.
Written 2-24-17
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​Daylight Saving Time Print this poem only
Hello morning
open my eyes
pull open the blind
from this darkness.
I need saving
from this blinding night.
What’s your shadow?
Illness
depression
anxiety
confusion
misdirection?
I’ve fallen into these dark goblets
crowded, muted - howling their darkness,
misguided by the misguided -
friends, kin, lovers,
all the screaming screens.
It is daylight saving time.
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Written 3-21-17
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Dragonfly Print this poem only
Dragonfly lights on the lily
her veined wings translucent
morning sun on the shimmering dewy grass
seeps through seducing my eyes
drawing me in to this delicious glory.
Author’s Note: Looking at a stained glass dragonfly plant decoration in our garden room I was reminded of one of my favorite poetry books, Ode to Common Things by Pablo Neruda who is one of my all time top poets. He could inhabit the essence of a chair to make you think you were friends if not intimate with it.
Written 4-4-17
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Buttercups Print this poem only
The clock was running and the hour late
my mind was racing at a crazy rate
the traffic on the road oh so dense
big trucks roared by, their drivers tense.
My mood was blue but I looked up
and saw a sprinkled wealth of buttercup.
And then I knew even in delay
the fate awaiting later in the day
would not be something I had to fight
for I’d remember this splendid sight.
By the road bluebonnets ablaze
swaying in the wind giving praise.
If on my path misfortune I cross
when I encounter pain and suffer loss
I hope I can recall the glory of this drive
give thanks I too am alive.
I hope on my journey I’ll look up
and see the sprinkled wealth of buttercup.
Author’s Note: Driving this morning on Texas highways April was bursting with joy. The wildflowers are magnificent, especially the buttercups, also known as pink evening (or showy) primrose, or pink ladies.
Written 4-11-17
Revised 5-10-18
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Ever There Print this poem only
You are never never in any land
where you cannot reach my hand
never never in any space
out of my embrace.
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I fly between the windmill’s blades
in the rainbow and in the shades
in every corner of your anxious room
even in your desperate doom.
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You and I have walked together
when you knew not whether
you would make it through the day
and you took your mind faraway.
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But I was in your every hair and breath
where I will be until your death.
Your heart is full of mine
a vessel brimming with Divine.
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So when you think you’ve crossed
into the desert and are lost...
Stop. Fill your lungs with air.
And find me always and ever there.
Written 4-13-17 (Revised from previous version)
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Constancy Print this poem only
I woke up adrift today
not knowing If you would be
close to me or far away
my mind was an angry sea.
Do you lead to waters still and clear
through the valley of the shadow of death
to green pastures where no evil I’ll fear
where you’ll be in my every breath?
Oh Lord, sometimes anger overtakes
and I’m chained by my ego pride
or a sadness breaks and shakes
the fabric of peace that’s inside.
Sometimes it seems an evil descends
invades the very rooms of my soul
and I feel lonely and devoid of friends
yearning and burning to be whole.
They say you never change
but down to the river I go
I see you move from range to range
I hear the rush of your vibrant flow.
It matters not how far I feel,
if guilt and shame bow me to knee
you’re here inside and really real
and I know its your love that’s my constancy.
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Written 4-16-17
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How have you risen today? Print this poem only
The sun rose again at dawn
lilies opened blasting praise
I found a road to walk on
to face my fear and malaise.
How have you risen today?
A son forgave his errant dad
A father forgave his son’s sin
from their chains they got unclad
and found a way to begin again.
How have you risen today?
My wife and friend came with me
to church and sang and listened
were open and willing to see
the light and my eyes glistened.
How have you risen today?
Confused and lost I’d gone astray
and thought I was dying inside
gave up on finding the way
learned I could still come alive.
How have you risen this day?
Today I found a new truth
that if you are really inside
I’ll always be in my youth
and when I die I too will arise.
That’s a few other ways you’ve risen today.
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Written 4-16-17
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Spring Print this poem only
I heard you singing
oh what a melody
awakening me
to cool clearness
to a fresh nearness
and peaceful resonance
with the preciousness
of Earth.
Contrast the days of anger
creeping and seeping into me
in such stupid little things
as an unscrewable top
a dirty fork dropped
a page that wouldn't turn
a candle I couldn't burn
talking, barking heads
fomenting darkness
and dread.
But last night
I saw your sympathy and sadness
as I poured out my madness
into the bowl of your heart,
threads in me torn apart
dangling jangling my nerves
and knotting my stomach
but there you sat - calmly listening
your eyes glistening
full of understanding and love
oh what grace
what a delicate lace
woven of affection
through you - from above
to cure my affliction
to settle me
into my soul
into that sacred soil
where heaven is sprouting
right there below my doubting
And so this morning
from the tendrils of my sleeping
I heard singing
the larks and love
God and Earth are bringing
and dancing behind my eyes
until they opened
and beheld
an ever burgeoning
ever startling
spring.
Written 4-17-17
Raisin in the Sun Print this poem only
This play tore me and wore me inside
watching the Harlem family beset and battered
by their lot of poverty, bias and pride
watching one by one their dreams shattered.
These actors shedding real tears
on the small community stage
pulled me back over the years
to the anger and rage of a younger age.
Older’ comfortable and white
still I wonder how I was so touched
by the story of those souls that night
how my heart was so firmly clutched.
Yet at times I too feel worn and tossed
trying to follow Jesus in my weakness
then I remember him weak on the cross
and am pulled from my pitiful bleakness.
Recently reborn I’m only a child -
will my dreams too be deferred
will I find the grace to desert the wild
or will this green Christ-follower be deterred?
Thank God I know strong Christian men
I hear some long journeys of faith
of places of light and dark they’ve been
their struggles and victories small and great.
Still I wish from an early age I learned to love
the Gospels and Paul’s letters one by one
and sang and clapped, and raised my hands above
I wish from the start I had raisin in the Son.
Written 2-17-17